I used to think I'm at top of the game when it comes to our wedding.. Things have been so crazy at work with me working three days straight at 11 hours each (ugh!) I barely had time to update this blog about our fab accomplishments. But before we go through that, I just would like to share with you this horrible nightmare I had just now..
I haven't even woken up for even 15 minutes yet here I am. I dreamed that I already got married in this big church called St. Ignatius (huh?!) and apparently it was a DISASTER. NONE of my Bridesmaids and Secondary Sponsors showed up. Only my future sis-in-law was there, but even my closest cousins did not make it! Also after the ceremony during the Recessional E & I exited to the wrong church door which left us looking like fools and finally we realized which door to go out from when we heard all the cheers from the guests. THEN my sister apparently told the band to surprise us by changing our First Dance song to "Zombie", OMG! It was SO HORRIBLE! But the thing which affected me the most was the fact that none of my Bridesmaids maid it. I felt so betrayed. It felt so real that there was even a "Next Day Scene" wherein I was speaking with our family friend and asking her, "Did I really get married yesterday??"and she said "Yes"then we went to the church just to check for ourselves if it was really far by commute.
I felt this huge relief upon waking up! And at the same time felt so guilty... I think I know why I had that dream, aside from the wedding stress lurking its way to my mind. My very good friend Odessa is getting married tomorrow and I was not able to make it home since my one-day emergency leave was not approved. I am one of her bridesmaids. :( And it has been gnawing my conscience for days now. I know how she must feel, but there really was nothing I could do :( I did everything, believe me.. I just hope one day she will forgive me... :(
To you Dess, may you and your future hubby Menzi have a beautiful wedding tomorrow and a meaningful marriage full of hope and promises.. I love you girl...Cheers!
I haven't even woken up for even 15 minutes yet here I am. I dreamed that I already got married in this big church called St. Ignatius (huh?!) and apparently it was a DISASTER. NONE of my Bridesmaids and Secondary Sponsors showed up. Only my future sis-in-law was there, but even my closest cousins did not make it! Also after the ceremony during the Recessional E & I exited to the wrong church door which left us looking like fools and finally we realized which door to go out from when we heard all the cheers from the guests. THEN my sister apparently told the band to surprise us by changing our First Dance song to "Zombie", OMG! It was SO HORRIBLE! But the thing which affected me the most was the fact that none of my Bridesmaids maid it. I felt so betrayed. It felt so real that there was even a "Next Day Scene" wherein I was speaking with our family friend and asking her, "Did I really get married yesterday??"and she said "Yes"then we went to the church just to check for ourselves if it was really far by commute.
I felt this huge relief upon waking up! And at the same time felt so guilty... I think I know why I had that dream, aside from the wedding stress lurking its way to my mind. My very good friend Odessa is getting married tomorrow and I was not able to make it home since my one-day emergency leave was not approved. I am one of her bridesmaids. :( And it has been gnawing my conscience for days now. I know how she must feel, but there really was nothing I could do :( I did everything, believe me.. I just hope one day she will forgive me... :(
To you Dess, may you and your future hubby Menzi have a beautiful wedding tomorrow and a meaningful marriage full of hope and promises.. I love you girl...Cheers!
And as for me, I think that dream has taught me that there will always be things which I will not be able to control, and I should just let go and enjoy the moment. Because the most important person who should be there will definitely be there anyway (read: your Groom! ;D). So to all the brides out there, there is no need to sweat the small stuff! Let Go! It's your day! :D
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